Wednesday, 4 April 2018

A Letter To My Younger Self

Hello Everyone!

So I thought I would do something a little different on my blog and have a little chat to my younger self.

I never thought I would do anything like this on my blog but I’ve been so interested to actually do this and here I am doing it! I don’t have much really to say as I’m sat here typing this but I’m just going to go with it and see where it takes me –

So where to start, I hope in some way my younger self would be proud of where I am right now, I have a good job which I’ve been doing for nearly 2 years and back then the job I do right now was my dream job. I wanted more than anything to be a PA and now I do that every day. I’m so much more confident now and less shy when it comes to meeting new people or being in certain situations. I hope my younger self is proud I’m still the same person even though I’ve matured now, I’m still the same person who will cut their hair off back to a pixie cut and isn’t afraid of what people will say. My younger self never thought I would do my driving lessons, pass my theory or ever do my driving test and actually pass but I’ve been driving 2 years now and it’s been a struggle getting my confidence to drive on my own but I’m finally there. Like everyone I have my good days and bad ones but will always try my best to make sure everyone else is happy. I still adore my family just like I did when I was younger and that will never change. I hope my younger self is proud I still love reading and would happily spend my nights in rather than out. I’ve lost a lot of friends whilst growing up and I’ve finally come to the realisation it doesn’t even matter, I’m happy and wouldn’t change anything for the world. I’m proud of the fact I pay my bills every month but also treat myself and everyone else meaning I did what I said I always wanted to do which was to be independent and be able to stand on my own two feet, I always told myself when I was younger that I needed to save so I could own my own home and even though it’s taken me a while to start saving it’s happening and I couldn’t be more proud of myself. I know my younger self may be a little annoyed of the fact I have a few debts I need to pay off but you learn from your mistakes right? I’m still a rubbish cook and can’t stick to healthy eating or exercise but I guess that’s just me. I’m still an emotional wreck and will cry at anything and recently I’d say all I’ve done is cry at certain things in terms of my health because I still am that shy person from all those years ago and recently I’ve had to be tough on myself to actually make me get certain things done and now I look back and realise I did it all and had nothing to worry about. My relationship is one of those things right now I know my younger self would be so happy with but I know I would be telling myself to keep it more private. I know my younger self would be proud of the fact I got my confidence to start a YouTube channel and blog and carried on doing them (with the exception of a few breaks here and there) I know my younger self would be proud because overall I’ve achieved things I never thought I would and overcome things I honestly never thought I could and for that I will always be happy.”

I’m kind of lost for words which I didn’t expect because thinking back to the last few years a lot has happened but when I sit and think of how well I have done it’s just a little overwhelming, I never expected to be where I am right now and there has definitely been a lot of bumps in the road but thinking back to what I wanted to achieve when I was younger I am half way there, All I wanted when I was younger was to have my own house, a happy relationship, a good job, be financially stable and have my own children but most of all be happy. I have a happy relationship and I do have a good job. I’m not as financially stable as I’d like to be but I’m getting there. I’m saving for a house deposit and the children part will come when the time is right. Overall I am happy, I’ve been down recently because I’ve been ill but something has still made me be happy. I never expected when I was younger to have my own blog but here I am and I don’t care who finds it which again back when I was younger it would have been my worst nightmare for someone to find my blog. I’m glad I did this post to actually look back and realise I’m a little too hard on myself sometimes. I hope my younger self would be proud of me right now and here’s a letter for me to read when times are tough to realise I’m doing a lot better than I thought.

Would you write a letter to your younger self?

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